Something is weighing me down

Wow, it was great fun and actually quite touching for me to collaborate with my pop on that last blog post. I know how much it meant to him as well. He was very moved by your comments. They truly touched his heart. There is still time to comment if you have not. I love to read the comments and he does too. I have to say that it still baffles me that I get between 200 to 400 hits a day and I average about 6-7 comments a post. Why is that? Well anyway, I told him that he should start his own blog and I will link to it. I think he may be considering it. I told him that I have found blogging to be a wonderful outlet and I know that he would love it too.

OK, so here is what is on my mind today. I will give you a hint. What is on my mind is what is not in my stomach.


Have you guessed yet?





You probably guessed it....I am on a diet...UGH!! I know, I know..I should be much more positive than that but quite honestly, so far I am not. I loathe the idea of trying to lose weight. I have done it before with HUGE success so I know it can be done. I actually lost 75 pounds about 12 years ago and kept it off for several years but I got complacent again and over the past few years some of those pounds have slowly crept back up on me again. My problem is that I am an an emotional eater. If I have an emotion (which is all the time ;0) I eat to accompany it. If I am happy then I want to celebrate with a good meal. If I am sad or anxious then food helps me dull the pain. If I am under stress which has been the case for the past couple of years...well that is the worst of all. I eat to push those feelings away. Between my failing real estate company and all of the issues we have had to face the past year with Ethan's development, I have put on 20 lbs. I had some eight to 10 pounds already creeping back anyway so need to lose about 28 lbs. That will bring me to a healthy weight and BMI.

It is actually not the aesthetic reasons that pushed me to this diet. I mean c'mon.. would a vain person allow these pictures to be posted up on her blog? I think not!! What is really driving me to do this are these two reasons:

1. My children - I want to stay healthy for all three of them and continue to keep up physically with the Dynamic Duo. At 47 years young it is more important than ever.

2. I can't afford to buy a whole new wardrobe in a larger size, nor do I want to!

Anyway, this time out I am following the Weight Watchers Flex Program Online. Doing it online suits my personality perfectly but I do not want to lose the accountability factor, so that is where you come in. The reason that I am going public with my weight loss program is that I need to be accountable to others (Hey, what can I say, I respond well to public humiliation ;0)

That is the reason that I am blogging about this subject. It came to me today that there may be others out there in the blogisphere that may want to join me in this quest. If so, I think it would be very cool to have a separate blog for the weight loss effort and we can be of daily support to each other. If you would like to make it a private blog, I can do that by vote of everyone that wants to participate. Either way, I will still post my weekly weigh in results here as well as my thoughts on my progress. I am sure that this would be a huge source of support for myself and others that may want to join me. Hey, it may even make it fun, so whether you need to lose 10 pounds or 100 pounds, let's do it together!

Excuse me in advance if weight loss talk is not your bag. Please feel free to gloss over those posts if you feel the need but like I said; this is something that I need to do.

Thanks in advance for your support. My children thank you too as they will benefit from a healthier and therefore happier mommy.